Hold Your Vision

You just know what you want to do with your life, no need to force it to happen

I’ve been holding the vision to sail solo around the world for 4 or 5 years now. Initially I planned a series of activities that would have brought me to complete my solo sail around the world before my 60th birthday. Yet it’s not going to happen this fast - few months left to that milestone now 🥹

However I have held the vision since then and rather than pushing hard for it to happen as I did in the first year or so, I decided to just allow it to happen. And it looks like it is moving again in the right direction. Honestly I let myself be distracted by other stuff, mostly work related, in many directions that were not aligned with my end results.

Instead of becoming frustrated at the lack of direction and the little or no advancement towards my real, deeply-felt, end results, I just observed myself repeating similar mistakes of being hijacked by interesting yet not completely satisfying tangential projects.

I am getting closer to the realisation that whatever you do is the right thing to do for you in that very moment. Perhaps I needed to be distracted, to make sure that my end results were solid and see that I would revert to them. Or it was just my curiosity for other things.

These days a few things happened that made me see that the solo sail around the world was still possible and that I could still embark (quite literally) in this adventure. One thing being an unexpected inheritance, just enough to being able to afford the right boat for the purpose. Another being an unexpected email, inviting me to a gathering of solo sailors. All confirming to me that the end result that I kept alive in my mind for years is the right thing to do.

Interestingly, I’m describing yet another way how we as humans believe that we need to know how things will work out. With the above thoughts it looks like I am trying to find approval and confirmation of my vision. If I am, I am just being human and giving in to my need to know.

However, truth is, that I arrived at this point exactly because I allowed myself to not know how it would happen. And I want to keep living in this state of not-knowing. For now I will just respond to the invite in the email, to join a party of solo sailors celebrating a special anniversary of a solo sailing event. Incidentally, that will be on the exact date I was planning to come back from my adventure in my initial plan.

Funny, I went instead on another adventure and I am coming back to the place where I want to start again my solo sail around the world. Let’s get started and see what’s waiting for me beyond the horizon!